How does a mother continue to live after the death of a child? Patricia Ramírez, mother of little Gabriel, seek comfort in the words written to your little fish in an emotional letter which referred to the media dated March 27, just when a month of the child's death was fulfilled.
The disappearance of Gabriel Cruz had us all with his soul in a fist, until we met the fatal outcome days later. Despite suffering the worst nightmares, the mother has always had a attitude of gratitude and fortitude and has given us all a great lesson in humanity.
The words of a mother's love
Mother goes straight to your son and tells him everything he has felt during this time without his presence, how the days of his search have been and what he would say if he could see him again. A few words full of love that make us move to tears.
"It's been a month today that you left taking so much love!""Hello Gabriel,
Today a month ago you left taking so much love! My son, if you could see it ... you have become the champion of the story, you were "CARLITOS" and everyone saw your infinite beauty. Do you remember that movie and its ending? Do you remember when your tears skipped and you said "that's me, put it back mom"?
My son, I would have liked it so much, so much, so much that you would have felt so much love everywhere, of good people where you cannot protect yourself with shields or armor ... all gathered before you with the sole purpose of seeing you smile again.
My love, I write these lines and I don't know how to continue ... today a month ago you were ripped from the earth, a month since my life does not cease to falter because of your absence. A month of the darkest evil and nightmare I would have ever wanted you to have and you could never have ... Fortunately, the most encouraging consolation is knowing that you left happy and did not feel the weight of the most unfair atrocity upon you.
My love, you know what? ... I saw a video of the movie Nemo while we were looking for you ... Yes from Nemo! I dreamed that when you appeared and saw it, it would help you to illuminate those big eyes of life again. They talked about you Gabriel! Y all the little fish in the movie were looking for you by land, sea and air like Nemo.
And so Gabriel was, we look for you by land, sea and air. You could never imagine the stir we ride to find you. Many policemen, firemen, civil protection groups, runners, cavers, mountaineers, climbers and thousands of volunteers came to kick all the mountains of your long-awaited and well-lived Hortichuelas and Las Negras. Also helicopters, Gabriel, the best means at your feet, those of my dad and mine, so that you could return with us. If you saw with the desire and strength that were looking for you "you would fall on your ass"!
And you know what? Although they didn't find you because you weren't there ... they loved you so much! They forgot their lives for a few days to give themselves to you and your eternal smile.
Today a month ago my love and that tide of enormous love that you have generated and thousands of proposals of good people, as in the song, whose end is not themselves but to make a better world with you as a banner still remains.
Would you like to know that everyone calls you "Pescaíto" and knows that you wanted to be a marine biologist. In fact, they have told me that they have hired you in heaven. Look, without having finished the race, you are already doing what you were passionate about! I dream that you are being treated well and are amazed to swim as you please by the sea. Knowing you for sure you have already gone down to the abyssal plain and found the "Megalodon"; Surely you have swum and played with the dolphins and have told them that you already knew from a very young age that they were breathing through the spiracle.
"Son! It has been a pride to walk with you these eight years. You have taught me so much!"I want to imagine your astonished face to see the "Portuguese Skull", the "Sea Wasp" and surely thousands of jellyfish more than we have seen in books or documentaries. And for what I have "calao", surely you have managed to become a friend Yokai that you often sing that "I am affable, achuchable and super friendly" that you liked so much.
I hope that when you are cold or go wet or go to sleep, you have no qualms about asking the angels who left us before they make you a "little package" and hug you like a baby, as you liked. If you do, you'll see how you feel and you can even smell the love and tenderness you've always produced for me. Surely you feel how, Since you were born, I have not stopped falling in love every day more with you and take pride Surprised at how you have been growing. There is no mother in the world, "little knife", who feels more pride than I have had and contribute to your greatness.
Son! It has been a pride to walk with you these eight years. You've taught me so much! I won't have words or tears with which I can describe how you did that Every day I would like to be a better person to raise you well and that your smile was a constant in your life.
Did you know that when I faced something that scared me you were the north that made me unfold the sails and never stop trying to become a great man? That was my responsibility Gabriel, but with you it was so easy and so intensely magical, which collapsed all the walls that put us ahead. I went from listening in my thoughts to Serrat with his verses of "children often resemble us", to the "Discipline without tears" that your friend Carmen discovered me. And you grew up every day; I was amazed to see how you wanted to improve yourself and how your aspirations and concerns, far from the usual behavior of any child, turned into "sunflowers" and singing to the brave.
Ah! You know, I didn't tell you something you're going to like. Do you remember that afternoon, walking along the promenade back home that we met Nadia while humming away from everything, "Sunflowers"? If you remember, you will like to know that thousands of children and adults sing and put sunflowers and light in their eyes every morning. They are those good people who don't look the other way and now take care of dad and mom.
To all that tide of people I want to thank you today in your name for their respect, help, disinterest, and for making our lives a little easier for us and the rest. To keep the rage and keep the "fish" in their hearts, making your march make some sense.
To Almeria, Spain and every corner that has been filled with your love just by seeing your smile (imagine if they had met you!), Everyone. "
