If everything goes well, in a few days I will be a mother for the second time. It could be said that a second pregnancy does not have to resemble the first in terms of physical changes, and in my case also in certain that there has been many differences in terms of feelings with my first pregnancy.
Something that has seemed very different to me is the confidence with which I face the physical changes, the inconvenience, because they are something already known. The confidence at the time of delivery is different, because I still face the uncertainty of knowing what awaits me, but let's say that now I have less fear, maybe also because I think less ...
The connection with the baby It is also different: now it is easier to get the idea of who is in there, I know how it will be to see her for the first time, I know I can feel her, talk to her, touch her and pamper her, I know what the turnaround in your life is from the The first moment you see and hear it, that is, I know what it feels like to have a child.
For that same reason in this second pregnancy it has been easier for me to talk to the baby, to caress her from the gut, or if you like, I have done it in a more natural and spontaneous way.
I can't help feeling a certain fear, I would even say pity, because I think I can't pay all the attention my oldest daughter needs, so small yet. Am I dethroning her before time?
People comment that she is too young to realize the change, to be jealous ... But she is very aware of everything that happens around her and I know she will notice. Recently she began to cry suddenly when she saw me take and pamper a tiny baby ... I am afraid that I will not be able to attend to her fully, although I imagine, I know, what I will do is "multiply".
The fact that I have to separate from her for a few days, staying in the hospital, also worries me, because we have never spent a night without being together. The truth is that it worries me until she sees me cry when she comes to see me and her little sister, because it is to see me cry, even if it's joyful, and to take my leg crying she also "Mom, mom, mom ...". But well, it will be only a moment, the moment to see them both together.
Another sensation is that everyone cares less about you, asks you less. Having gone through a pregnancy so recently and that everything happened normally I imagine it has a lot to do with this. It does not mean that it is bad, because sometimes the insistence could get tired in the first pregnancy, but it is sometimes missed (especially when for one reason or another you are not feeling too well).
I imagine that some of these sensations will be shared by other moms, others will have different feelings and that is true, every pregnancy is a world, including another pregnancy in the same woman.
